I'm lonely!! Dayton left to Utah for a wedding this weekend I've been bunking at my moms house in their guest room. Winsley has been sleeping great for the past week but last night was rough. We weren't in our bed, didn't have our swing, and most importantly Dad wasn't there. He is the offical walker when nothing else will calm her down, he gets a glass of water when I'm thirsty at night, and mostly just good for goodnight kisses.  I hate being alone now. The nights when Dayton gets home late I triple check the locks, blast the TV, and close all the blinds. It's funny how much just him being there puts me at ease.

 The other night Dayton said something I'll always remember. I had just put Winsley down to bed at went to the living room where Dayton was watching TV. I kissed him good night and offered to give him a quick back massage. He politely told me to get to to bed because I had work in the morning and said "It's okay honey, we can do it another night." I insisted and really wanted to help him out! He then tried to turn it on my and say "How about I give YOU a back massage." WHAT?! NO?! So now we're in this dumb "argument" about who is giving who a back massage. haha My closing argument was "You deserve it more than me." And then Dayton very sternly said, "Don't ever say that again" Not the most romantic thing he's ever said but I knew the meaning behind it. haha My heart melted and I sat down infront of his chair, then we switched. I thought about it all night. I said that he deserved a massage more than me is because he works in the hot sun walking and talking to mostly angry people all day long. We're talking 120 degrees outside all day.  I don't undermind my job and importance as a mom but I value his hard work so that I get to stay at home with Winnie. I'm grateful more than words can say for a husband who see's my job as just as hard as I see his. I think it's a great place to be when you both believe that the other spouse is carrying a larger load than you. It's easier to never take the other person for granted. But it's not EASY!! That's the most annoying part. It's hard to place yourself in someone else's position and to remember the roles as husband and wife. It's insane to me how perfectly a man and woman can work together with a LOT of sacrifice.

Do you see why I'm losing it without him?! He's the best part of our house. I love when he comes home and when we finally get to all be on the couch and laugh and smile at Wins. The other day Dayton started singing to her "You waaakkke me upppppp, at nights when I am sleepingggg". Get it? Josh Groban. Will I ever be able to go one post without obsessing over him...