The day after post

written August 28th, 2012

I'm sitting here writing this post a day after I found out I'm pregnant. As the news is setting in (barely) I have been thinking alot about our little sweet pea growing.  I'm overwhelmed with love and my heart is full. When I found out I sat in the bathroom at work 5:45 am and just stared at the test. I immediately wanted to text Dayton a picture but stopped myself to wait and make sure. I took three more tests that day and although a faint line they were consistent, positive.

I sat at work dying to tell someone, mostly Dayton. I kept thinking about telling my family and Daytons family and just cried and cried of how happy we will all be.

There have been many spiritual experiences and, if I'm being completely honest, a lack of faith on my end with our decision to get pregnant. I feel very young and I know our lives will take a 180 when this little bundle is born and that scares me alot. But in these quiet moments, alone, I've prayed for strength. Prayed for faith in a plan that, on paper, doesn't seem to make sense to me at this time. The practical side of my head is pushing through telling me that I can't do it. But then at those instances, I'm over come with a full heart and trust. So much trust in my loving husband who has started telling me to eat lots of protein and flax seed because of research he's already done, who now comes in the door from work saying "What's up Mama", and who tells me my only job is to take care of our sweet baby.

I picture my little babies in Heaven reassuring their Mama that its their time. Its their time to bless our lives and teach us lessons that will make us better.  This hasn't been an easy day for the news to settle in. So many emotions, worries, happiness, and gratitude. Mostly gratitude I've decided. That our Heavenly Father trusts US to take care of this little miracle and I will always feel lucky for that opportunity. Its really humbling to realize I don't know it all. There's a plan for our little Jones' family that was not on my radar but it's here and I'm so  happy.

**Thank you, thank you a million times for all the nice comments on facebook, instagram, text, calls, and the blog. We are thrilled to become parents and are grateful for support from so many friends and family! I cant say it enough! **